hmm well i went to the hospital again today. the doctor says i have a good heart! haha "not the kind that would get heart attacks"

well but i am really unfit. shall go to the gym. i realised that the safra gym near my house has a 12 week IPPT prep program.
SIGH
i should have signed up for it in december
then i wouldn't be so unfit and anxious about NS

i think that worrying is really useless.
that being said, i think it's human to worry. even if you know that it doesn't help... haha

i think that being defensive is an extension of pride.